“All moments and experiences in life, mould us into the individuals we are now and continuing to become. The act of becoming is magical and something which is constantly evolving. Embrace all of the sorrow, pain, discomfort and disloyalty; with pain, there is pleasure. Loss there is hope. Anxiety there is confidence. Disappointment, progression. The reverse is true similarly. However, we are called to simultaneously, cherish the love, laughter, positive energy, light and warmth of life. Allow such to shine brightly on your being, to ignite a light, effervescently within. As balance is exactly this, conflated with nourishing our minds with kindness towards self and ALL others.” ~ Maddie x
These words, I recently expressed to a dear friend and blogger of mine (if you would like to follow his beautiful blog please visit this site immediately, for beautifully crafted, thought provoking, honest and virtuous insights into life and one’s journey: therandombangalorean.wordpress.com). These words are by no means gospel to anyone. However, to me, they hold truth, sincerity and a worth which enables me to continue in life.
Last week, another obstacle appeared cumbersomely across my life path. Being declined from a job opportunity, in response to the organisation becoming aware of my history of mental illness. I was not upset, frustrated, annoyed or angered that I was declined. Merely the component of the process that I endured for four to six weeks of numerous forms of assessments, tests and interviews to proceed to the next stage of the application process to reach the final stage, informed that I was successful. Until, I honestly and eagerly submitted my medical assessment, disclosing all health history, mental health included (as why be surreptitious of one’s journey, when we each have a story to be disseminated, respected and understood?), to subsequently, be declined by beings higher in superiority (who had never been physically introduced to me), due to perusing my name and mental illnesses in black and white print.
Emptiness. Incompletion. Thwarted. Hopeless. Unworthy. Anger. Frustration. Annoyance. Numb. Categorised. Alienated. Disengaged. Dislocated from the majority. Labelled. Discriminated against.
I was not sombre for myself. No. For all whom are discriminated against in some means with society, along their journey. Discrimination, assumptions, judgements, prejudice remarks, misunderstandings and delineation are all, NEVER ok. Not for anyone!!
I cannot speak on behalf of others who have been poorly discriminated against for the colour of one’s skin, height, age, disability, illness, disease, past history or the like. However, I can for those who have experienced such with mental illness.
Not allowing one an opportunity based on what is presented on paper, is a contravention to one’s human rights, in every means. We are all worthy of opportunities and second chances. So why are we thwarted from any progression when we may prove to be an anomaly?
Those with mental illnesses are not insane, incompetent, unworthy, difficult, precious or vacuous. The opposite is true! We are humans just as all are. Would we be declined an offer if we had high blood pressure, a past of fractures or asthma? Possibly not. So why and how do Mental and physical illnesses or histories differ so widely? As if there are parallels and a dichotomy between the two?!
Thus, just as I felt all was gradually improving, life continued to remind me that not all is able to be controlled by mankind; the pure essence of life to embrace what is meant to eventuate, is suppose to at the congruent moments. One must, regardless of the obstacles tumbled along the way, not give up in one’s pursuit of purpose, happiness, belonging and worth. As aren’t all proponents what we identically desire?
As my dear friend above kindly conveyed to me, we each have a gorgeous song which is to be sung at its highest volumes. To be shouted from the peaks of the mountains from the depths of one’s heart, with truth, unlimited belief and absence of fear. As our authentic songs deserve to be sung, heard by the masses and disseminated wilfully. The world wishes to hear you proudly speak your truth. Your journey. Your light. To shine unapologetically. As if we don’t, the unwarranted and antiquated act of discrimination and the like, shall fervently continue if we do not stand up for what we believe in. For justice to be served for all; inclusion, equality and the wholesome respect and admiration for every soul part of mankind.
Regardless of all, I allowed myself a few days of depression and tears, to process all. Followed by the fuel to continue to advocate for mental health and well-being. To live my life as I desire, knowing that what is destined for me, is something more than any possible employment, or lack thereof. Life occurs in mysterious ways. Embracing such labels, distrust, volatility and fragility with a half glass full perspective, shall ensure we receive what we are worthy of abundantly.
Keep progressing. One step at a time, no matter your journey. You are wonderfully capable. Do not allow any others to inform you differently. For you are you. This is your truth. Own it and never fear doing so lovelies! Which path shall you embark on?
All of my light, goodness, hugs + love always,
P.S. there is absolutely NOTHING incorrect with being considered in the minority. Being classed as superior or at the top of the hierarchy, is never sustainable. I would rather continue with vigour than to know all was handed to me. I respect you all regardless. Love, peace and light ✨ x